a story..

let me tell u about a gurl who fuckd up big time. sigh.

she had it all.. the perfect bf, a famliy still together, a house and everything you needed to survive. every thing has been going great for the past few years until the end of 2o04~

this gurl was depressed, moody and very very unhappy. not just with school but with the family and love life. sighs. her family is now far apart and she misses them being together alot. i cant put into words and explain all the feelings that runs through her nearly every day. so many things just turned upside down within two months. sighs wel things were sorted out .. uneasily and she found herself a great guy that really cared about her - she had never felt so special in her life. this guy made her feel like nothing else mattered and life was just perfect.

sighs. wel months past... and life was.. hrm wel goood and bad at times. she had wat she wanted and i guess, was content with her life to an extent! lol. sighs. until something went wrong......

one day something that she has kept in the dark was revealed and it was not pretty. sigh. she was accused of something that she may have done but was in the long and forgotten past. things went crazy and hearts were shattered. sighs. once again, her world came tumbling down and she broke down with it.

she is now hoping for forgiveness and waiting for the verdict. she knows what a terrible mistake that she has made and wishes that it would all vanish away into thin air. sigh. she had forgotten about this past event and didnt expect this to happen at all. sighs. it came to her as a shock and now she is out of words. she doesnt know what to do and she doesnt know what to say.
tears fall from her eye as she waits.... its only been 20 mins but it feels like forever. all she can do is to say sorry and hope that hewl forgive her... sorry for hurting him and sorry for lying... sorry for everything and sigh... sorry.....

sigh. she cant do anything now. she just sits there hopelessly crying, non stop.
waiting.. hoping.. wishing..
she has now lost the only person who had made her feel special. the only person that she had ever loved. she had just lost the one thing that made her smile constantly and look forward for the next time she could see and hug them.
she doesnt know what to do.

mayb this was meant to end a long time ago. there has been many hints .. signs... tellin her that they should not be together... because of him she has had constant fights with her parents and non stop crying..

sigh she doesnt know what to do.. she loves him.. he's gone.