holidays...eh study break

~its been a long time since iv blogged.. sighs.. and i guess nothing much has changed since then..
holidays hav started.. wel actually they are considered as study breaks for us year 12ers lol hahaha. mock exams are starting on tuesday for me.. my first one being english ! >_< *eek* lol
sighs.. havnt rely started studying yet.. coz the start of the holiday for me hav been quite laid back and relaxing lol! on the last day of school i went to bussleton for a night! woah that was fun!=P hahahahah got lots of piccies too rofl.. will put them up when i cbfd hahahaha
um on saturday i watched the footy and omg how can the eagles looooose =( *crieS* argh it was a great game tho.. reli close all the way and woahh soo exciting! lol hahahah
hrmm anyways.. on sunday went to alexs house for some class thing and it was an over night procedure too lol hahaha so yer.. sunday and monday were spent at alexs house! lol that was funn! hahahah alot of food fun and games?! hhahaha =Pp

hehe anyways from friday to monday it has been slak and fun! lol hahahah but tuesday.. lol i went to the library from about 3.30 to 9pm hahahahah but hmm study was not full on i guess.. but quite a fair bit.. lol tryin to make up for loss time! hahahah yepps..
and today me been studying for maths too.. im tryin to get my notes done asap so that i can move on to another subject lol coz this maths is boring me >_< hahahahah *zZzz* me on chapter 8 now.. i still got 4 more to revise and then notes.. =/ *eep*

hrmm first exam is on tuesday, english!. then i gotz two on thursday - econs and maths, then friday for accounting! .. lukily after that i got a weekend to study for my hbiol exam! then im done!!!! hahaha *weeeeeeeeeee* sighs then bak to school then TEE! rofl FUN !!!

hahahah sighs.. wel i got lots on my mind atm and it makin me tired rofl so imma go sleep nows! >_<

i wana say thankz to alex for sunday and monday.. and thanks to my germ for the great night on friday lol and thanks to tony for buying my ticket and congratz to alvioli lol =P *hugz*

goood luck to everyone for their exams ! =) xoxoxo

maybe i should leave this time......

maybe it just wasnt meant to happen... maybe this is good bye.............................
maybe i shud kill myself instead of hang my head and cry.......

i dont know what to do or what to say to you...
what am i suposed to do coz everything i do seems to make u blu....

my hearts broken and i know iv broken yours too...
sighs.. i wana make it all better but i juz duno wut to do....

i look thru all the letters and presents you gave to me...
words sayin forever, and we were meant to be....

i gues actions speak louder than words and it didnt work out well....
should i wait for you or should i end it now?....

the trust is proably broken n things wont be the same...
maybe this was never meant to be, maybe i shuld go away....

maybe its time to say goood bye and move on to something new....
maybe i should have went to china and started life new....

sighs maybe i should leave this time.......
sigh i cant take all this crying...........................

a story..

let me tell u about a gurl who fuckd up big time. sigh.

she had it all.. the perfect bf, a famliy still together, a house and everything you needed to survive. every thing has been going great for the past few years until the end of 2o04~

this gurl was depressed, moody and very very unhappy. not just with school but with the family and love life. sighs. her family is now far apart and she misses them being together alot. i cant put into words and explain all the feelings that runs through her nearly every day. so many things just turned upside down within two months. sighs wel things were sorted out .. uneasily and she found herself a great guy that really cared about her - she had never felt so special in her life. this guy made her feel like nothing else mattered and life was just perfect.

sighs. wel months past... and life was.. hrm wel goood and bad at times. she had wat she wanted and i guess, was content with her life to an extent! lol. sighs. until something went wrong......

one day something that she has kept in the dark was revealed and it was not pretty. sigh. she was accused of something that she may have done but was in the long and forgotten past. things went crazy and hearts were shattered. sighs. once again, her world came tumbling down and she broke down with it.

she is now hoping for forgiveness and waiting for the verdict. she knows what a terrible mistake that she has made and wishes that it would all vanish away into thin air. sigh. she had forgotten about this past event and didnt expect this to happen at all. sighs. it came to her as a shock and now she is out of words. she doesnt know what to do and she doesnt know what to say.
tears fall from her eye as she waits.... its only been 20 mins but it feels like forever. all she can do is to say sorry and hope that hewl forgive her... sorry for hurting him and sorry for lying... sorry for everything and sigh... sorry.....

sigh. she cant do anything now. she just sits there hopelessly crying, non stop.
waiting.. hoping.. wishing..
she has now lost the only person who had made her feel special. the only person that she had ever loved. she had just lost the one thing that made her smile constantly and look forward for the next time she could see and hug them.
she doesnt know what to do.

mayb this was meant to end a long time ago. there has been many hints .. signs... tellin her that they should not be together... because of him she has had constant fights with her parents and non stop crying..

sigh she doesnt know what to do.. she loves him.. he's gone.

study marathon!

yesterday was the biggest/longest study period that i jav ever had in my whole entire lifetime! lol hahahahah hrmm it started at 8.30.. i went to school and yer normal schooling lor.. until 2.50
then i went bak home to rest for a bit.. i was deciding whether or not to attend the after school maths revision! bUT... nah lol hahahah so i had a shower and ate some food.! lol hrmm then at about 4.50 noog came over to pick me up to go to murdoch uni for the accounting seminar....

hrmm yes accounting seminar... it started at 5-7pm.. and omgosh it was a WASTE OF TIME AND MONEY rofl hahahahaha it was the biggest bs ever i swear ! rofl hahahahahah omgosh eyy lol >_< the guy basically gave us a sheet of paper at entry then he basically read it out to us for the whole 2 hours and we even had a usless 10 min break ! ARGH lol hahahah fukn hel..
hrm rory and i threw some jelly beans at him ! rofl hahahahahah =Pp wooot* kekekeke *get off the stage*! lol hahahahaha sighs....

anyways that was reali boring and so we all decided that we had enof and so we left the seminar 15 mins earli! lol hahahahah =Pp hehhehe hrm from murdoch me and noog had to go to uwa for the economics seminar ! >___< hrmm that was much better than the accounting one..by FAR! lol hahahahahah =pp

umm yer the footy was on durin the seminar too lol so the lecutrer gave us frequent updates! lol hahaha and WOOOOT GO THE EAGLES!!! owned sydney by 4 points !! hahaha =D wooot* rofl kekekekek ~ ^^

hrm anyways lol hahaha umm the econs thing finished at 9.45pm ! hrm then keviiin, yulz, nooog, jimmy and me.. made our way to town ! heheh we went to utopia for some bblt and met up wit long time friend.. gary! rofl >_<>_< hahahaha
yapz..then we went to timezone and the bois playd initial d.. haha noog got chopped by gary and then kevin got chopped by nooog! rofl hahahaha anyways had to go home nw coz it was 11.30pm! lol >___<

kevin was being such an ass and wudnt let me go home !! until about 11.55!! ARGHh rofl hahahaa but lukily didnt get chopped by my mom ! =D hehehe and then err fone then sleep! lol >_<>_____< *zzzzzz* rofl hahahahahah

yah anyways i need to do hwk now so iwl write more laters =D xoxoxox